We were in such a hurry up and move in mode after we signed for the house, we didn’t have time to think about much. Moving out of the storage units, working almost every day, unpacking boxes, boxes, boxes…Repeat for several weeks. As we were settling in I caught myself getting anxious on occasion. Why? We were here and getting unpacked, finally, the water, heat, and batteries were running. Things were going well. It was beautiful, quiet, such a peaceful oasis. Friends would come by to see us and the place. To hear the story over and over of how we got here. What we wanted to do. Our hopes and dreams for this place and ourselves. Our son came home, saw the house and land. He knew this is where we should be.
My anxiety or fear was worry, worry that someone was going to come and say “Sorry, you have to leave here and go back to your old house!” Not that our old house was bad, it was just time to move on. I didn’t want to go back unless all the Family that was there would be there again. We know that can’t happen, so here we are.
So I found that when at peace here, I let worry creep in and try to steal my peace away. How was it possible to be in a place that you love so much and afraid to leave it? Afraid someone would swoop in and take it away?
I think it finally stopped about 3 months in. By then spring was coming close and i was planning chickens, gardens (veggie and flower), firewood, and yard clean up. There was more for my mind to think about and do. Getting to know our property and get a feel of where the sun would hit for gardens and such. Where would the chicken coop and chickens go? You know, the important things. lol
Our deck was built in the spring, thankfully by someone, we knew for years and he fit us in his busy schedule. It was such a great addition to our big beautiful home and we use it anytime we can. Our solitude, our peaceful place away from everything. I have sat and watched dragonflies, hummingbirds, butterflies, birds, squirrels, chickens and so much more in our yard. A most beautiful
sight.
There is something to be said for having a peaceful mind. That anxiety, fear, worry creeps in sometimes, just for a second and I say “Nope, not today, not any day!” This here is Our place, Our oasis, Our peace!
Take Care ~ Shelly
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